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amanda: so
amanda: ready for a shocker
gordo: oh yah
gordo: whatsup
amanda: long story
amanda: but
amanda: I will never be on oa again
amanda: nothing against anyone there
amanda: I made a lot of mistakes
gordo: oh macks
amanda: I just wanted you to know I am sorry for anything I lied to you about, and i did a lot
amanda: I am sorry
amanda: I really cannot explain
gordo: what are you sorry about?
gordo: are you ok?
amanda: life changes
gordo: and i hardly go on OA anymore
gordo: everyone so pissy all the time
amanda: well
gordo: lol whats up
amanda: had a break down
gordo: ARE YOU REALLY A GUY
amanda: in my life
gordo: WHATS GOING ON
amanda: close
amanda: but
amanda: no
gordo: lol ok
gordo: It sounds like you've been under a lot of stress
amanda: yes for very different reasons
gordo: sup
amanda: well i did, but I have been getting a lot of help
gordo: hit me
gordo: sup m
amanda: and lets just say I lied to everyone on oa
amanda: including you
amanda: about
amanda: everything
amanda: I have told 2 people
gordo: you are Hans
gordo: aren't you
amanda: I am not the person in the pictures
amanda: no
gordo: lol
amanda: I am not hans
gordo: you are Elrick
amanda: No
gordo: You are Tyrone
amanda: I am amanda mackay
gordo: ok
amanda: I joined forgotten gamer years ago
amanda: as myself
amanda: and people were dicks
amanda: so
gordo: ...
amanda: I created a person and rejoined
amanda: and it went way too far
amanda: well
gordo: lol ok
amanda: obviously
gordo: so
gordo: other than the person in the photos
gordo: anything else?
amanda: some things yes
gordo: what was your name on FG?
amanda: it was a long time ago
amanda: i dont even remember
gordo: so who is Amanda Mackay?
amanda: me
gordo: so i don't get it
amanda: I have an acutal facebook
gordo: whats the problem
gordo: ok
amanda: the other one was fake
amanda: well
amanda: I have nothing against anyone
amanda: I just can't lie anymore
gordo: ok
amanda: being myself id much better
gordo: did your mom really die?
gordo: ...
gordo: oh macks
amanda: no, everything i lied about that was eventful
gordo: no, as in your mom didn't die?
amanda: it was in relation to something that happened in reality
gordo: so who died
amanda: I couldnt tell you what really happend
amanda: so i would make something up
amanda: that fit
amanda: yes
amanda: I get that its very wrong and sick
amanda: but
gordo: well
amanda: I got caught up in being someone else
amanda: it felt nice
amanda: to get attention online
amanda: lol
gordo: haha!
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gordo: you realize I believe about 50% of everything anyhow, right
gordo: I'm in sales.
amanda: lol
amanda: good
gordo: BUT
amanda: 10% was reality
gordo: ok
gordo: Is there a Z?
gordo: lol
amanda: yes but he is my friends baby
gordo: there is no Z
amanda: she knows
gordo: this is interesting.
amanda: she is mad but forgiving
amanda: and "Chris" is her husband
gordo: So your friend is the girl in the photos?
amanda: yes semi
gordo: You know.
gordo: I kind of thought something was up afer the whole *OA member* trip mishap
amanda: yes
gordo: did you really buy tix?
amanda: haha
amanda: take a guess
amanda: lol
amanda: sorrry
gordo: proabaly not
gordo: so
amanda: i did not
gordo: what about your web site?
amanda: it is mine
gordo: Amanda Mackay .com or something, right?
amanda: yes
gordo: so you used her photos in those too?
amanda: she modeled for me
gordo: ok
amanda: got the idea because people started assuming I was her
gordo: friend me on facebook right now
amanda: in the business world
amanda: i cant do that yet:(
gordo: why
amanda: because think of the opposite of her
amanda: thats me
gordo: lol
gordo: who cares
amanda: i cared enough to hide it for many years
gordo: uh
gordo: i'm not exactly interested in that-
gordo: i have the best wife in the world
gordo: i'm just curious to see what's going on here..
amanda: hahahaha
gordo: now go
amanda: I know
amanda: but
amanda: I will link you to a pic of me
amanda: but facebook
amanda: I have my family
amanda: my co workers
amanda: my friends
amanda: think if oa got that
gordo: so why are you telling me this, then
amanda: if*
amanda: becuase i thought about this for a while
amanda: I could just ignore everyone
amanda: and delete them
amanda: and never say a word
gordo: YOU AND ELRICK
amanda: I know
gordo: DID HE-
amanda: I KNOW
gordo: OH WOW
amanda: he didnt know
amanda: he doesnt know
gordo: THATS CRAZY
amanda: I know
gordo: SO YOU HAD TO END IT BEFORE
gordo: ...
amanda: he ended it
gordo: wow.
amanda: I bet he figured it out
gordo: thats crazy
amanda: I agree
amanda: i didnt do it to decieve people
amanda: well
amanda: ok
amanda: I did it
gordo: well obvs you did
amanda: not to hurt people
amanda: because i was angry
amanda: i was dating a guy for almost 9 years
amanda: and he never touched me
gordo: why
amanda: because he has a lot of issues
amanda: I was not aware of
gordo: so
amanda: until recently
amanda: I wanted affection so badly
amanda: that just talkign about it
amanda: was better then what i had in reality
gordo: i can understand that
amanda: I figured our relationship in reality
amanda: was normal
amanda: he was the only person I had ever dated
gordo: You do realize.
gordo: You wold probably be the biggest celebrity in the history of OA
gordo: if you let this out.
gordo: I mean.
amanda: I dont plan on telling them
gordo: They would probably change the site name to Mackay-ages.com
amanda: i can imagine the drama
amanda: I have been made fun of my entire life
amanda: people
gordo: dude why
gordo: ok
amanda: I just couldnt deal with it anymore
amanda: faking was sooo nice
gordo: so, you're an overweight chick in nova scotia
amanda: yes
amanda: bingo
gordo: and acting like anorexic amanda made it feel better
gordo: is your personality real to some extent?
amanda: in my messed up head
amanda: it did
amanda: yes
amanda: my personality
amanda: is me
gordo: well i hope so
amanda: I dont chage
gordo: and you promise you're not Hans?
amanda: big breakdowns
amanda: yes
amanda: I almsot kileld myself
amanda: after my ex left
amanda: it was out of the blue
amanda: unexpected
amanda: got some help
gordo: how long ago was that?
amanda: started living as myself
amanda: about a month ago
gordo: poor macks
amanda: or more
gordo: i'm sorry
amanda: reality
gordo: to hear that
amanda: is a lot better
gordo: it must be very stressful / painful
amanda: I actually met a guy who wanted to touch me.. it was odd
amanda: lol
gordo: you mean online?
amanda: no
gordo: irl?
amanda: met him
amanda: yes
amanda: I started spending time with friends
amanda: as myself
amanda: I met no one
gordo: well, i mean "interacted" with
amanda: yes
gordo: ya know
amanda: Link: http://i29.tinypic.c...---------------
amanda: that is the real me
amanda: man thats hard to do
amanda: very hard
gordo: You know what.
amanda: but
amanda: its me
gordo: I don't care
amanda: I cant change how i look
gordo: As long as you're not a duder
amanda: I am not a guy
amanda: I am older too
gordo: so..
gordo: whatevs
gordo: poor macks if true
gordo: hiding the whole time
gordo: impersonating
amanda: yea
gordo: that would indeed suck
amanda: it was hard
amanda: because everyone always complimented her
gordo: AT LEAST YOU CAN BE THE REAL PERSON YOU ARE IF THAT IS YOU
gordo: SHE LOOKED SICK AND ILL
amanda: lol
amanda: shes anorexic
gordo: YOU WERE GETTING COMPLIMENTS FROM PEOPLE WHO LIKE BESTIALITY
amanda: shes sorta mean i was surprised she took it so well
amanda: lol
gordo: do you feel relieved
amanda: I am letting go
amanda: yes
amanda: its like I have had this huge fear
gordo: thats cool
amanda: what if oa find s out
gordo: eh
amanda: and i just do not care anymore
gordo: who cares
amanda: yes
gordo: you realize
gordo: OA is just a website
amanda: yes
gordo: it is not real life
amanda: yes
gordo: you can step away from there and forget all about it.
amanda: i felt bad liying
amanda: I have nothing againt you
gordo: thats cool
amanda: against*
gordo: I still have this fear that you're going to be Hans
amanda: well
gordo: lol
gordo: anyhow
amanda: what would i gain
amanda: I am not hans
amanda: hans doesnt know
gordo: Does Anthony?
amanda: the only people that know
amanda: yes
amanda: anthony, mupepe and you
amanda: thats it
gordo: i fell so honored
gordo: feel
gordo: anyohw
amanda: I dont think I am going to tell annon
gordo: continue to post at OA
amanda: no
amanda: NO
gordo: lol
amanda: lol
amanda: I cant!
gordo: seriously
amanda: I should just change my pics
amanda: and post
gordo: it would be an awesome deception.
amanda: lol
amanda: lol
amanda: I took it too far
amanda: if i hadnt
amanda: I would
gordo: ehh
gordo: who cares
gordo: its the internet
gordo: everyone has something to hide
amanda: I know
gordo: I"m outta here macks
gordo: thanks for making my day interesting
Session Close (amanda): Tue Jul 21 16:46:25 2009 -0400
amanda: ok thanks Crisco, you are a very nice guy, i am sorry again, say hi anytime
gordo: good luck
amanda: see ya















